Archive - February 11, 2015

You know the old kid’s song “The Wheels On The Bus”?  “The wheels on the bus go ’round and ’round…..”? That song? Well, mine goes more like, “the demons in my head run to and fro, to and fro, to and fro. The demons in my head run to and fro ALL THROUGH THE DAY”. That’s what my thoughts feel like.  Little, or sometimes big, demons. Taunting. All day long. If I ever told anyone…anyone at all…the things that really go through my mind. The things I hear, the thoughts I have, I’m pretty sure nice people in white coats would come and take me to a little quiet room with no access to sharp objects, and there I would live out the rest of my days. And that would be it. I’m still trying to figure out how to make them go away without medicine.  The demons, I mean.  I have resorted to xanax the last couple of days, just to avoid a COMPLETE melt-down.  Oh, normal……where the heck are you? Do you even exist? Maybe this IS my normal.  That’s disturbing.